Está aquí/ She is here

Dame la fuerza de amarme,

de amar todo lo que soy.

Dame la fuerza de amar mi muro de hielo,

 esa agua de ser,

congelada en la fuente.

Acompáñame en la hora del terror

de verla derretirse

y salir de mi interior.

Acompáñame en esa hora,

cuando quede expuesta,

vulnerable, acorralada

entre la vida y la muerte,

como lo estuve en esos segundo

antes de mi primera respiración.

Quédate después,

cuando haya que seguir respirando,

Enséñame a caminar, a caerme,

a sonreír, a bailar, a abrazar

con mi agua de ser,

sin hielo.

Me escuchaste, viniste a mí. Cuando cerré los ojos, estabas ahí. Me miraba al espejo a través del vidrio y lloraba. Un doble reflejo. Cuando cerré los ojos un momento, no era más yo sino tú.  Te vi, de verdad te vi mientras lloraba. Al cerrar los ojos, mi reflejo eras tú. Mi doble, mi guía. Viniste a mí, me acompañaste. Y yo no podía hacer más que llorar de verte, de sentir nuevamente esa expansión de cuando me habitas. Siento tu poder, tu magia, espíritu, diosa, loba blanca. 

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Give me the strength to love myself,

to love everything that I am.

Give me the strength to love my wall of ice,

that water of being,

frozen in the source.

Come with me in the time of terror

when I´ll see it melt

and flow out of me.

Be with me then,

when I´ll find myself exposed,

vulnerable, cornered

between life and death

as I was in those seconds

before my first in -breath.

Stay afterwards,

when I´ll have to keep breathing.

Teach me how to walk, how to fall,

to smile, to dance, to hug

with the water of my being,

without ice.

You listened to me, you came to me. When I closed my eyes, you were there. I was looking into a mirror thought a glass and I was crying. A double reflection. When I closed my eyes for a moment, I was not me but you.  I saw you, I really saw you while I was crying. When I closed my eyes, my reflection was you.  My double, my guide. You came to me, you came with me. I couldn´t do anything more that cry because I was seeing you again, I was feeling that expansion that happens when you are alive in me. I felt your power, your magic, spirit, goddess, white wolf.